"I have no Idea where I am going"

I miss Kat... she's a holy woman and one I never honored enough... something that saddens my heart daily now, because I can't honor her the way I want, due to our current confusion.

I know God has a plan in store, and though I think I know it, it doesnt mean that I do. I pray that God works through me in this time, to guide Kat to Him further, and to give me the strength to love her enough to know that I may not be His path for her, and to care for her enough that I want His path above the path I want.

May God bless us both in this time... and may His face shine upon us.

Thomas Merton's Prayer
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MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.